Okay, well I know there really isn't a lot of you on here that pay much attention to me, but I can really spill my heart out without him being able to sneak a peak inside of my mind...

Well, I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm not sure what happened along the way. One moment I was happy, with an amazing guy, the next my mind's turned upside down and I'm thrown out of my own body basically, forced to end it with this certain someone and lost on the forsaken path of a barren heart. Next I turn around and he's with my bet friend! (which you have no idea how happy I am for you Misa-Misa!)

That's when I realized that I had to do the same. I couldn't dwell and count on my life for anything and I had to take control! But when I finally found someone who mad me swoon with just a quick glance, I fell, and fell hard. I knew all I wanted was to be on his mind all the time and know that I was the only thing keeping his heart aflame. All I wanted was to make him happy and clear his mind of what was happening before his very eyes. Everything was going great. We were getting close again and I really thought that maybe I had a chance. How stupid of me.

You see, he really makes no effort; not really putting any thought into what he wants. I'm not sure if he's just playing me, seeing through me, or just likes to roll me around on his little string. Maybe this was all just a big mistake and I'm readng to much into it and maybe I have to stumble through this darkness before I can run into something else. All I know is death would be great company now, but I'd want him gone as soon as he knocked on my door frame.

For those of you who actually read this whole damned thing, god bless. Thank you for paying me attention and giving a little thought. I've wasted enough of your time.